It's 2 in the morning... I'm wondering about my current state of affairs. It's like this: I'm thinking about something...and someone, at this fucking time of night. I know I SHOULD go to sleep but I don't. I know I have a lot ahead of me tomoro and Monday, but all I want to do right now is wait. Wait how long? I don't know. Wait at all? God I want to. I...am totally out. Gone. Insane. Lost all logic. Lost all common sense. Why? Maybe for 5 minutes of his time? I swear, 5 minutes will make my day. It'll bring a smile to my face and make my day worth going through. Should I wait? Even with the impending doom of work tomoro? The studying, the precalc, the mountain of unfinished notetaking and analysis for english, the AP French, i'm pushing all that aside. I'll wait. How long? I don't know. I don't know anything right now, except to talk to him. I'm starting to sound crazy creepy...but it's the way I feel. I don't expect him to reciprocate, and that's still fine by me. The only thing I want is his time of day, that's all I ask for.
Just 5 minutes.
Just.Five.Minutes.
And the wind brought Clive @ 2:06 AM
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Sunday, October 16, 2005 |
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