destiny lover (AA)
bethoveen virus (AA)
fantasy (A)
MAX PERIOD (C)
oooOoOOooh yea!!! ::does the duffman::
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anyhow. i can't believe i survived this past week...omg... i swear, im gonna go to sleep at 11 today...::sigh::... why doesnt every week have 8 days instead of 7?? and why can't the weekends be 3 days rather than 2? 2 days is just not enough...
ooOoOoO, have any of you ever had that one mushroom that's really poofy and is ultra absorbant?? my mom cooked it in this one soup, but then afterwords, i sucked out all the soup and dunked it in orange juice!!! it was SO YUMMI!!! "^_^" okok...enougn of me insane-ness and weirdness...
im going to go play stepmania (homework is in there somewhere...)
GonE
And the wind brought Clive @ 9:29 PM
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Wednesday, March 31, 2004 |
ripped from kelvin
[bold what applies] aZiaN
1.Your mother has a short-haired, curly perm or dyed
2. Your dad is some sort of engineer.
3. Your parents still tried to get you into places half-price saying you were 12 when you were really 15.
4. You ask your parents help on one math problem and 2 hours later they're still lecturing.
5. You have a 40 lb. bag of rice in your pantry. ::last i checked that was a good thing::
6. You shop 99 ranch. ::yup, and lions too::
7. Everyone thinks you're "Chinese" no matter what part of Asia your ancestors were from. ::ppls in HK think im jap::
8. You've had a bowl haircut at one point in your life.
9. Your parents enjoy comparing you to their friends' kids. ::i feel like smacking my parents...::
10. You've had to sit through karaoke videos with scantily clad, ugly Asian women attempting to dance and walk around a temple, forest, or library. ::sadly...and i blame you, Young goh goh...::
11. Your parents say, "Don't forget your heritage." ::once or twice, but they said it::
12. You or your parents drive mostly Japanese cars. ::european::
13. You've learned to keep bargaining even if the prices are rock bottom. ::yea, inbred HK bargaining skillz::
14. You've had to eat parts of animals they don't even put in hot dogs. ::ever heard of pig's blood??::
15. At least once, you've started a joke with "Confucius say...."
16. You know what bok choy is. ::the question is "who doesnt?"::
17. You've gotten little red envelopes around February ::one of mai favorite months...::
18. Piles of shoes tend to make it hard to open the front, back, and closet doors.
19. You hear (your name + eee (optional) + yah!) every time someone calls you (e.g. Joy - ee - yah! or Joy - yah!). ::huh??::
20. You have no eyelashes. ::wtf?!::
21. Idiot people try to impress you with pathetic imitation Asian languages, like the ever-so-popular: ching chong woo bok chi, etc... ::hah...nikheet... funny...::
22. Your parents say leaving rice in your bowl is a sin. ::you wife will be ugly, not quite a sin for you...::
23. The Bio lectures on marine life (seaweed, sea cucumbers, octopii) was last night's dinner.
24. Your ancestors 1000 generations back invented the back scratcher.
26. Your parents hover over your tired, caffeine-drugged body at 12 midnight to say, "In Korea (or other native country), we studied even more."
27. Your parents expect you'll be best friends with any one off the street in any given area as long as they are Asian.
28. An Asian woman comes on campus and people ask: "Is that your mother?" Well then, "Is it your sister?"
29. Your relatives' houses smell like incense, mothballs or both. ::only a couple::
30. Your parents say, "Calculus? I took Calculus in 8th grade!"
31. Everyone thinks you're good at math.
32. Your parents' vocabulary is filled with "ai-yahs, and Wah's."
33. You like $1.75 movies. ::who doesn't?::
34. You like $1.50 movies even more. ::even better...::
35. Your aunts and uncles bring you back adorable clothing from Asia with fuzzy bunnies, vinyl ducks, and English words that make no sense, in great colors like yellow, pink, magenta, orange, and the ever popular lime green. ::oh yea, it was lime green and had Y2K stitched to the hem::
36. Your parents insist you marry within your race. ::grandparent, definitely. but parents are kinda loose...::
37. You never order chop suey, sweet and sour pork, or any other imitation of oriental food.
38. You either really, really want to go to UCI or really, really want to stay away from it.
39. Your parents have never kissed you.
40. Your parents have never kissed each other.
41. You learned about the birds and the bees from someone other than your parents.
42. "You want a stereo?! When I was your age, I didn't even have shoes!!"
43. People see a bunch of scribbles on a chopstick and ask you to translate.
44. You have to call just about all your parent's friends "Auntie and Uncle."
45. You have 12+ aunts and uncles.
46. At expensive restaurants, you order a delicious glass of water for your beverage and NEVER order dessert. ::THEY wouldnt order dessert, but i do::
47. Your parents simply cut the green/black part off the bread and say "Eat anyway. It's still good." ::i say it, my parents dont::
48. The vast majority of the people related to you wear glasses. Thick glasses.
49. You will most likely be taller than your parents. taller than your mom at least :: i AM taller than my parents::
50. Your parents have either made you play the piano, the violin, or both. ::im glad they didnt, thnx mom and dad::
51. You get nothing if you do well in school, but crapped on if you don't. ::kinda true::
52. When going to other people's houses, you always have to bring a gift.
53. Your dad still pulls his socks up to his knees, you know, the ones with the blue and pink stripes at the top. ::lmao, my dad wears ankle socks, and tried to act punk::
54. Your family owns a tennis racquet, golf clubs, or both.
55. Your family always cheers for the Asian athlete on TV (i.e. Michael Chan.) ::my parents like basketball, and dad kinda like yao ming, so i guess that works...::
56. The furniture in your house never matches the wallpaper, the carpet, the decorations, or any of the rest of the furniture. ::i guess...::
57. You have rocks, sticks, leaves, and strange-smelling, unknown substances in your pantry for use as medicine.
58. You own a rice cooker or two.
59. You buy soy sauce by the gallon. ::by the quart::
60. Your family owns butcher knives bigger than your head. ::almost bigger, but not quite...::
61. Your parents tell you about how long it took for them to get to school, how horrible the weather was in their native country, and how much they still appreciated going.
62. Your parents buy you clothes and shoes many sizes too big so you can grow into it" and wear it for years to come. ::i waer my dad's clothes a lot of the time::
63. your parents believes in fong swaii (whos that?) ::first of all retards, it's fung tsui in canto and feng shway in mandarin. whoever translated "fong swaii" is a poopoohead. but yea, my mom believes in it.::
64. your parents are very conservative and think that tank tops/halters/spaghetti straps shows too much skin. ::my dad much prefer topless when he's doing yardwork::
65. everytime your parents lecture you, they always make up excuses that relate to everything you've done in the past. ::i FUCKING hate them for this...and i cuss openly for this one...::
66. you eat rice everyday. ::almost everyday...::
67. you like JIN ::not really like-like, but the way he uses canto in that one song is funny::
68. when you were little. Your parents beat you with sticks and stuff ::nah...i got whipped by bamboo, aka tung tiu::
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overall, this was fun and enlightening, wouldnt you agree??
GonE
And the wind brought Clive @ 11:47 PM
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Tuesday, March 30, 2004 |
OMFG STEPMANIA IS SO ADDICTIVE... i swear, im losing so much sleep over this (and tactics, but thas another story) my average bedtime is like 2 now. thas about 23 hours of sleep in a 5 day school week. THAT'S NOT EVEN A DAY OF SLEEP IN 5!!! yea...so im screwed...
- ahh!!! science thing!!! i cant think for beans!!! i cant write if i cant think!!! ahh!!! pamela...i seriously need your notes...
- whew...math notebook was turned in...my grade was an 80.2... lucky lucky me...
- someone need to tap me on the shoulder once every 5 minutes... please do that brian... keep me awake..."-_-"...
- english notebook...not so good. i never liked taking notes. well, i guess romeo and juliet wouldnt be that hard to take notes for but anyways...
- long jumps are fun! field is fun in general... track... isnt...
- french grades...abysmal... as always..."strong B" doesnt get as well as reception as "weak A." ::sigh::...why did i drag foreign language on myself in 7th grade...?
currently addicted to:
STEPMANIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fftactics advance
hirofumi sasaki
banya
kunitake miyuki
melissa
MAX PERIOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fiber jars... ::sad...i know...::
this one weird dream im having about the future...
ooOoOOo, that reminds me... i've been having this one really weird dream...so far, i've seen like, 4 people do/say/look bizzare things... for example...
1. most shocking...IRENE...omg...you're pregnant, i was like ::what the EFF!!!::
2. kelvin (n) was doing that "knock up" thing to some girl ::jaw drop::
3. henry (yan) stuffing his face and his wife patting his back ::the surprising part was the wife::
4. my own wife saying i have "very nice hair" ...::i was like...1, I HAVE A WIFE?! and 2, I HAVE TIE-ABLE HAIR?!?!::
so yea...very interesting dream... i have no idea where i was either. i was first at a gift shop of some rainforest museum, then outside is a beach, but the class reunion thing was also at this upperclass aristocratic room in some clubhouse building... weird...
so yea...interesting stuff this week... kelvin (l), send me a couple a day! "^_^"
GonE
And the wind brought Clive @ 5:36 PM
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la di la di la......
so im bored again...i have chinese school tomoro, and i'd rather be home listening to that getbackers opening song. yea, i know. i have no life.
but seriously. when you start thinking about it all, you really dont care what you do or not. life goes something like this...
step 1: "this is so frickin retarded, why do i have to do this?"
step 2: "argh, this is so hard, but i have to do it anyways...i didnt want to do it in the first place, but since i started, i have to finish it"
step 3: "finally, im done!!! yay!!!" ::celebration::
step 4: "if i had a choice, i would do it all over again."
thas how most of us respond to most things anyways... but me?? heh heh... im so ironic... i leave off somewhere in step 2. hell, look at my math notebook, lmao.
why am i always feeling so angsty...especially this week...? lack of sleep? probably. adolecence? yea, that too. but im thinking about this more and more. what makes me act certain ways, you know. and i realize, you just do... what makes me me, is what makes me act the way i do. like i found out with kelvin (n), im special in a way that makes me me. i have the attitude of a person that doesnt want to be growing up, but for some strange reason ::insert dry humor here::, is. i like being me, and what's that? childish, impulsive, very very spontaneous XD. i like to win, sure, but most of the time, i can't. and i think thas where my personality kicks in. the classic "i dont give a damn" denial. it's also kinda funny how i know this. cuz i mean, people who usually are like this deny it. me, i think it's cool...i like me, "^_^". im through all the friggin "i wanna kill myself" crap, it's junior high stuff. its time to invest myself in more worthwhile things. what? i dont know, but hell, im gonna find something worth my while. thas what im living for right now. and like i discussed with margie, "my reason for living is simple. i live to find out why i live, what's my purpose in all this, etcetc." it got kinda theological after that, but that was the main gist of it.
oOoo, look at the time, i went too psychotic again, bad, bad clive. i'll have to lock evil clive up with clive the poet to see what they can come up with. hell, evil clive hasnt been getting too much sun lately, partially caged by final fantasy tactics advance and my invasion of choas box, lmao...
overall, this week was torture. like, really BAD torture... my math grade went from B+ to B- in a week. i really should set my priorities straight. so here's my promises to people...in order of priority, lmao
Kristin: i promise to be faster (at everything, haha)
Hubert: i am NOT gonna be crazy like you. i give you props for killing yourself with 5 APs, but i'll have to talk to you about that whole cutting thing...not good...
Kelvin (n): i say we mess with people's heads more often, but i promise not to go too far. though diss wars are SO much fun, lmao...
Annie: i promise to be less kiddy and act less stupid around you and Amy. and around family in general... and angsty too...i promise to stop those...
Kelvin (l): well, what can i promise you? i can promise you to make more decisions for myself more often?? LoL, remember that time we did that "what do you want" thing for like, 5 minutes?? that was funny...
Margie: i promise i'll always remember you (how can i not? "^_^")
Sana: i promise i'll never give you back your crayon shin-chan comics (unless you haul your ass here and get them yourself)
Dan: i'll promise to never "shut the fuck up", ever. lmao
Michelle: i promise i wont bug you anymore about everything XD
Rick: i promise i'll learn to draw
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wow, i didnt know i promised (or just promised) people so many things... anyways. if all else fails, remember the name of my blog. like a windswept life, we must finish the things we never started. thas my mindset for now, and it's not ginna be changing for a while...
GonE
And the wind brought Clive @ 9:11 PM
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Friday, March 26, 2004 |
Music of Cry and Stardust
Life swept by and i was left empty
Time came and left as softly as the breeze
I went and damned myself once more
And although i must be myself
I stumble upon dead ends with ease
sakimidareta hana tsumasareru
they have to be mine
sakimidareta hana tsumasareru
I have to live with them now
kutabatte osaraba suru made
On days i cant stand to see myself
My mirror shatters me in two
nan no tsumi mo nai hazu na no ni
nanraka no batsu wo uketeru
and i give a distant cry to whomever will listen
sakimidareta hana tsumasareru
they have to be mine
sakimidareta hana tsumasareru
I have to live with them now
kutabatte osaraba suru made
i think back to the past
namida atsumete yozora e kaesou
i still have hope in this
bring me back
donna ashita o yume mite ikou ka konya
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there's no music to the song, find your rhythm, find your tune, this is a song from the heart... oh yea, and brush up on your japanese too.
gone...
And the wind brought Clive @ 4:36 PM
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Tuesday, March 23, 2004 |
i am a virtual vegetable. jeebus, i dont do anything, just sit that and act...inanimate... how can i be so unfeeling...when you're just sitting there, so close to me...?
Duvet
~BoA (SEL intro)
And you don't seem to understand
A shame you seemed an honest man
And all the fears you hold so dear
Will turn to whisper in your ear
And you know what they say might hurt you
And you know that it means so much
And you don't even feel a thing
I am falling, I am fading
I have lost it all
And you don't seem the lying kind
A shame then I can read your mind
And all the things that I read there
Candle lit smile that we both share
and you know I don't mean to hurt you
But you know that it means so much
And you don't even feel a thing
I am falling, I am fading, I am drowning
Help me to breathe
I am hurting, I have lost it all
I am losing
Help me to breathe
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help me to breathe... the dogma of this world is suffocating me...
sing me a lullaby
a penny for my thought?
i'd have a million by then...
for you though...
i'll give a little piece of myself to you
for a fraction of your thought
i'll have whatever you give me
i want you to know this, since ...
i think i love you...
~owari
And the wind brought Clive @ 1:07 AM
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Saturday, March 20, 2004 |
omg, from "Precise and Exactly"
"Well..." Flustered, and suddenly uncomfortable, Daisuke glanced around the table. "I suppose love is...noticing everything about them without knowing you see it... Love is watching them smile and feeling your heart die...kissing them and having your soul expand...watching them go and feeling it crack..." his words fell into softness, barely heard words as his eyes unfocused and a sort of anguish stole over his features.
"Love is impulsive..."
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omg, daisuke is soo sweet, the ending is good though, good ol'kari's always there for him "^_^"!
sigh...how do ppls write so well, i want to learn how to write romantic smut too... waitwaitwait...no...i didnt say smut...i meant story! thas right, story!! ::sheepish laugh::
my creative brain just isnt spinning the right direction lately... homework is a pain in the ass... im never on top of my projects, omg, this hella sucks...
Disturbing thought of the blog: omg, david (yes you, david zhao), your sexy wink is really disturbing... here's mine: ;P
now we're even, LoL
la-di-la-di-la... my holy blade attack does 250 damage you your sorry ass, you'll regret going against Han the great paladin!! muahahahahahahah!!!
oh well, i guess i have nothing left to say/rant, ja ne ppls
And the wind brought Clive @ 5:59 PM
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Thursday, March 11, 2004 |
i find life to be repetitive...wake up, school, home, eat, net/homework/gameboy, dinner, net/homework/gameboy, shower, net/homework/gameboy, sleep, repeat
well, something DID happen today. JEEBUS KRYST, my cousin from HK called me right in the middle of science, OMGOMGOMG, i was so embarrassed... and then it rang AGAIN for the text message, jeebus...i had to turn the frippin thing off...
i wanna have another sugar high... comeon kelvin, lets make more sprite creme margueritas, lmao
sigh... i feel like such a stereotypical ansty little teenager, but i can' help it, it's my job to BE stereotypical...
yay, 2-5 days before my shipment gets here, yes, i might be dealing drugs...might...
sana, you're crayon shin-chan comics are currently up my arse and around the corner, you might never get them back, lmao
stupid dental appointments, always ruining my fun...
stupid chinese school, always ruining my life...
stupid life, always ruining my...wait...nvm...
oh well, i have some hw to do, ja
And the wind brought Clive @ 6:18 PM
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Wednesday, March 10, 2004 |
oh bejeebus christ, i am NOT shallow...
just read the long survey thingy below, it'll explain why i said no when waller asked "i look more at personality than looks" goodness, i can't help but stress the fact that you can't walk up to a random fat guy and go "oh yea, he's so caring". you can't judge people just by looking at them. caring only about personality will get you nowhere, since if you dont even want to see the person, personality wont MATTER! oy vey...
now that i got that out of my system, i need to cry myself out too, i frippin failed a math quiz, WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ::pauses for breath:: HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ::pauses again:: HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ::pauses once more:: HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... ok...i think i got that out of my system too...
french quizzy turned out pretty well though...
omg, final fantsy tactics advance is the longest game EVER. oh mai god, i played for like, 60 something hours and im still level 18. usually, after 50 hours, you're like, level 30-40 already. omg, this is so bs...
editing midnite blaze ::omg, im actually editing that impossible song, gasp::
a week more till my box "^_^", and saswata, keep wondering what i'll open up next, muahahahahahahahahahaha
shakespeare must be either gay, a pimp, or a loser suffering from a huge midlife crisis...
me go shakespeare-ing, ja!
And the wind brought Clive @ 6:04 PM
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Monday, March 08, 2004 |
o. Boyfriend/girlfriend: nope
o. Crush: nope
o. Do you love anyone right now: i love kelvin (n) and henry, lmao, especially henry, cuz he's caught between me and kelvin, lmao. jkjk. i dont love anyone. how can you when you're not even sure you love yourself?
o. Have you ever been in love: mm hmm
o. How many hearts have you broken: iono, i dont count, LoL, jkjk. i dont think ive broken any...
o. How many people broke your heart: too many to count
o. So what's your significant other like: if i had one: sensitive, smarter than me, has fashion sense, has money sense, capable, kind of person you can look at every morning and smile at, dominatrix (jkjk), and a lot more of that cliche crap
o. Do you go more by looks or personality: personality i guess, but like kelvin (l) said, you have to see the outside before you can judge the inside, so i guess it's mainly personality, but looks first.
o. Ever hump a friend: "o_O" uh...no...why would i??
o. Are you still friends: uh...i dont know...
o. Do you smoke: nope, why do it??
o. How about weed: weed?? nope, just like smoking, what's the difference again?? well, just no
o. Acid: uh...im not really sure what it is, but i really dont care, it's gonna be no anyways
o. Ecstasy: do i like esctasy? what kind?? "^_~" i dont do drugs. period.
o. Crack, heroin, anything else: i hate when ppls make me repeat maiself... I DON'T (THAT'S DO NOT) DO DRUGS... jeebus...
o. Are you a sissy who drinks Mike's Hard Lemonade and wine coolers: who you callin sissy you skinny mother loving jockey??
o. Prefer beer or liquor: chocolate milk ownz all your arses
o. Last time you got some: got some...cards?? last saturday. got some games? last friday. got some food? 4 hours ago. what got some again??
WOULD YOU EVER
o. bungee jump: helk yea
o. Skydive: helk yea
o. Swim with dolphins: definitely, though i think id slip off the dolphins back, or im too heavy or somethin...
o. Go rock climbing: again?? yes, even though i cant climb over 5 feet...
o. Change your religion: you mean GET a religion... maybe, who knows, that'll be the day hell freexes over, if one does exist which technically it does.
o. Turn your back on your friends for personal gain: what gain would be greater than friends?? helk no!
o. Steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: im not that low david...
o. Lie to the police: i helka will if i ever get the chance
o. Run from the police: depends on what. if my wife is a policewoman and she wants me handcuffed, i dont think i have to run ::winkwink::
o. Speed away from the police: prolly
o. Walk up to a total stranger and kiss them: eww...why?? did i get paid a million dollars?
o. Be an exotic dancer: when i get a religion, lmao
o. Streak: for you? no.
FRIENDS
o. Best friend(s): lot i guess, do i have to name??
o. Known the longest: jhsu, kelvin lam, edmond lai, samantha li
o. Wish you talked to more than you do: ed, definitely ed. he was mai first friend in the US...
o. How many friends do you think you have: i dont count, and i dont think i can
o. How many do you actually hang out with: why does it matter who i hang out with more?
o. Who drives you insane: insane in the good or bad way?? bad: parents, good...uh...i'll keep that a secret, dont want EVERYONE to know
o. Ever lose a good friend because you took it to the next level: no...
HAVE YOU EVER
o. Flashed someone: nope
o. Told the person you liked how you felt: yes...
o. Gotten really REALLY wasted: nope
o. Skateboarded: nope
o. Skinny dipped: uh...i think so...when i was little
o. Stolen anything from a store: yes...
o. Kissed someone of the same sex: my dad? but not on the mouth, eww...
o. Been to a concert: yea
o. Been to another country: i was BORN in another country...duh...
o. Talked back to an adult: i believe that's the prominent definition of the word Teenager.
o. Given money to some homeless person: yes, there are many poor homeless ppls in HK that sleep under bridges and sleep on cardboard boxes. i feel so sad for them...
THE LAST THING
o. You ate: this thing called "leen goh"
o. You drank: water
o. The last place you went: kitchen
o. Last thing you bought: cards
o. Last person you saw: dad
o. Last person you talked to online: annie
o. Last person you hugged: uh...mom?
o. Last song you heard: yuki kaijura - the world
YES OR NO
o. Do you like cows: they're yummy
o. Do the voices talk only to you: voices?? oh, you're talking about imo, my imaginary friend right? of course he only talks to me! hes MY imaginary friend!!!
o. Are you straight: what the hell kind of question is this?? i sure as hell arent crooked!
o. Are you short: average
o. Do you own a lot pink shirt: no, but i want the one that has the 3 little pigs on it. the last house got blown down and theres green gas coming from the middle little pig. the other 2 are on his sides and are staring at him. the back of the shirt said : i didn't do it, it just happened. lmao
o. Do you like Marilyn Manson: helk no
o. Did you ever touch someone else's no-no spot: on purpose, no
o. Do you shop at Hot Topic: no
o. Do you remember your dreams: yes, the gravitational pull/falling one was fun, i was almost lucid dreaming, it was so very cool.
o. Can people read you like a book: sometimes
o. Do you talk a lot: yes, i think i do at least
o. Are you afraid of clowns: no, some of them are kinda cute. tonberries on the other hand...::invountary shudder:: THOSE are scary...
o. Can you drive: not yet...
o. Are you an only child: yupe!
wow, it's over. im a go do that shakespere thinger now, ja ne!
And the wind brought Clive @ 7:51 PM
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Wednesday, March 03, 2004 |
omg, mai sci project is actually looking pretty well "o_o"... just that mai plants arent growing ::sniffsniff::
And the wind brought Clive @ 11:57 PM
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Tuesday, March 02, 2004 |
moral crisis averted...im resorting to denial...
songs stck in my head as of this moment:
311 - love song
DDR? - beethoven virus
S.E.L - toh-i sakebi
jeebus... hw, proj, me so "x_X"
on with eng hw! ja ne!
And the wind brought Clive @ 9:18 PM
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