dear blogger,
my day was crap, so tiring...yourz???
yea, thas pretty much the jist of it...played..um...$3.50 of ddr 7 games in all, 2 of which i was tortured by kelvin's songs, LoL southland is the best, 50 cents for a game, its so cool! "^_^", if only it was a 7th mix machine..."-_-" i wanna learn how to bong thomas...it'd be so COOL!
::yo'mamma's SO fat, the last time she saw 90210, she was on a SCALE!:: LoL...
what else did i do today?? i dont know...i forgot already, eh~eh, cant trush short term memory "-_-"...
im still tryin to get the friggin url for a PICTURE for this friggin blog...
143, Jimi
im gone...
And the wind brought Clive @ 8:05 PM
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Monday, December 30, 2002 |
goin to kelvin's then to southland for DDRing, ja ne
143, Jimi
im gone...
And the wind brought Clive @ 11:27 AM
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today was pretty good, with Jimi there and everything
it was me, Jimi, david, kathy, bryant, and christina...played 2 dollars of DDR, watched LOTR2, and uh...took pics and ate ice cream "^_^" thas the synopsis of the day...the long version below...
got to great mall at 12:10, waited for david and bryant for 15 minutes, froze everyone's ass off...when the 2 DID get here, we walked around the courtyard in circles and randomly dissed david, XD! bought tickets for 1:05 show then went to vans for ddr game #1. dead end, healing vision, dream a dream, era(which i failed). then david played. superstar, dam dariram kcpmix (which he failed, XD) then we went to watch the movie, the movie was aiite...i only liked the fight parts, and even thosewere confusing, so clive rates "the two towers" a 6/10. newayz, the movie made me dizzy and i had lots of eccess energy, so what did i do?, play DDR again, no duh, i had extra coins anywayz. dead end, healing vision, .59, era (which i passed, YAY!) and then we went in circles again...this time inside the mall though...and me and Jimi decide that we could go and take pix now since she was leaving at 7 and it was like, 4:45. we waited in the friggin long line and waited for a friggin half an hour, and took our pix. then i went to buy Jimi cold stone "^_^"(thx sarah!) Jimi chose strawberry and i chose chocolate chip, "^_^" we walked around while david and everyone else went to anchor blue, and then david and bryant decided to play missing and we spent 20 minutes looking for them, seems that they were sittin on a bench, LoL. we then went to look at the proofs, choise one, and went off to burn nother 45 minutes. went to tokyo animation, sat down outside and talked (kenshin w/bryant) then we went to media play for like, 30 minutes. we went back for pix and that was it, Jimi had to go home...well...after...bryant and me and david kept walkin around the mall till it was 7:30, meanwhile, bryant and i played angel/devils' advocate with david, it was so FUNNY! we had david goin "AHHH!!! NOOOoooOOOOooooOOO, LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!" LoL...bryant: save,saVE,SAVE! me: spend,speND,SPEND! so yea...we had fun for half an hour, then momand dad picked us up and in the car, we talked about... everything...and uh...i think thas all... went to eat after at "fu lam moon" and came home. thas all...
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im gone...
And the wind brought Clive @ 11:36 PM
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Friday, December 27, 2002 |
The Way Of Life (Part III), Be Yourself
~CCCF, AKA iViE
She is the king
And queen of the house
She makes me so angry
I scream and I shout
Annoyances around me
Ignorance is near
My anger is pushing me over the edge
And now you all must fear
You know nothing about me
Disturbing the peace and my sanity
Your knowledge of me is absolute zero
Teaching me all your morals and values
Going around and playing hero
Making everyone believe in your witless views
The only exception is that you’re a woman
And you know that you’ve taught me well
You taught me never to hit a girl
And you’re laughing at me from hell
Insolence and brag
About this all you want
Pissed off and dangerous
My fire fueled by your meaningless taunts
I’ll keep this going
Until everything stops
It would probably end
In 90 seconds, tops
I’ll keep going and going until I can’t anymore
Realize my anger
Right down to the core
Flunking out of the picture
I’ve never studied for a test
She taught me to learn things the first time around
If not then you can’t be the best
Always mocking me
When you know you were the one that’s wrong
Always annoying me
Demands made at me with a silver prong
Be secretive, be shrewd
Be independent, but don’t be crude
I’ve learned to be independent
Isn’t that what you wanted?
You come crawling back to me for a helping hand
I was patient, yet you rejected
Me with your little sissy fits
Yell at me till I hit the pits
Yell at me with your demanding words
Want me to chop a word in thirds
Want to give me attitude?
Shutting you up is an interlude
Of my thoughts to myself
You were the one that taught me to be strong
To do what’s right and to right what’s wrong
What do you hope to accomplish?
Lessons that I’ve learned from you
And now you want me to stop?
How absolutely hypocritical
Your bubble has just been popped
Is this still a poem?
Or is it now a rhyme?
I don’t bother explaining to people
It’s just going to be a waste of time
So come now,
Come into my world
Feel the pain
Feel no gain
Be dissed by you own parents no less
Wonder how I deal with stress
I think about it
I don’t digress
Life’s a bitch
Made for you to mess
Up so badly to regret yourself
Screwed up so much and blame yourself
Make you want to kill yourself
Just to get life over with
Be defiant, be silent
Be outspoken, don’t be compliant
Bribing me with your smiling face
Behind your back is an iron mace
Ready to beat me to the ground
Disillusioned, now gagged and bound
By your very own words
Morality bites, so deal with it
You dig the ditches and I fill the divots
Splashed with mud along the road
Carried back to my abode
I give it all up to one heart
And hope it will not break
“Hearts will never be practical until made unbreakable”
I’ve put myself up at stake
I’ve taken another risk
Gotten stung by another dis
Empty threat and empty words
Do I look like a hollow shell?
Do I look like living hell?
Why do you say things you don’t mean?
Why make promises you couldn’t keep?
Why do things you know you can’t?
Why even believe at all?
Cut all ties
Stop all lies
Rebel against authority
Be yourself
Know yourself
Freedom of society
To know yourself
Is to know the object of your hatred
To be yourself
Is not to become disillusioned and jaded
I chose to be who I am
With a knife behind my back
Tortured, made demands of
My problems stack and stack
Only a couple things left to say
Life is a force
Come what may
Can’t afford to make one mistake
In the road that’s life
Can’t afford to buy a car
And drive down this road of strife
So come, world, sweep me off my feet
Throw me now from here to Rome
I’ve got no room left at home
So prepare your stance
Be ready to brace
Cuz world, here I come…
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told you it was done...
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im gone...
And the wind brought Clive @ 11:15 AM
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-met cool friend james
-james gave me his lucky quarter, LoL
-played lotsa DDR
-found nOTHER change machine in newpark, god, tilt is fuckin annoyin...
-all maniac on 7th machine, whoo hoo!
-that means im good now!
-got new pkemon cardz, LoL, wheE, 1 azumarill, 1 suicune ::the non holo one...::, and 1 ::b0OO:: scizor
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todayz conz ::b0OO::
-spent a good 3 dollars...dammit...
-failed FRECKLES, DAMMIT!
-got a FRIGGIN SCIZOR
-saw DIANA...wait...or was it jennifer...? wait...yea, DIANA!
-FOUND OUT THAT ANNIE'S NOT GONNA GO TO PLEASENTON WHICH MEANS IM NOT GOIN WHICH SUX CUZ I GOT YELLED AT FOR WANTIN TO GO, FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- havin to go through a lot of unpleasentness today...u know? i think the way of life 3 is hot off the press...yes, thats a bad thing, that means mai life's been shit...
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give and take
ive got ppls who think they can play god...
listen to this b4 u say nething...
u mite learn a thing or two, hah...
its got meaning alright
so lets see...they
mess with ppls lives, makin them happy
giving and takin, making them miserable
clouds hangin over like a canopy
rain and thunder gives asunder
opening the sky with tears
bolt 1, hits the nearest tree, first to stand, first to fall
bolt 2, hits the farthest tree, young but shrewd, takes from all
bolt 3, hits its mark
through the forest, into the dark
into the cavernous plain
into the void
seekin for another life to destroy
meticulous in word and choice
diction dark and profound
meticulous in aim and fire
action sharp and area bound
knife and sword, hilt to hilt
human nature sets off and tilts
word that come from far and near
changing lanes and changing gear
the faster we go, the slower we think
the faster it goes, the slower it'll find
find to hit its mark
it will find it in the dark
it looks and looks, on to see
until it finds it, let it be
the more thought put into someting, the better the result
empathy rules all, knows all, feels all, judges all
know it, respect it, use it
apply it and break the fall
so when life hangs you by its end
and you know its time to stop
fall into this bottomless pit
come with me on this unending drop
the eternal loop called life
and where the lightning struck
we'll never know
it coursed down the loop called life
i know ppl who think they can play god
the rip the sky asunder, and open its tears
i hate you.
And the wind brought Clive @ 11:29 PM
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Thursday, December 26, 2002 |
yesterday was fun...kinda...i played ddr at metreon, 3rd floor, second machine
dynamite rave basic freestyle (i finally got down that back thingy...now on to the big jump thingy...)
.59 (point 59 dammit...)
healing vision
dead end (yea, i finally passed it, go me, mai first 9 foot song..::cries:: im so proud of miaself...::sniffsniff::)
the good part of that day was that i got togo to metreon and play ddr there
the bad part was that i was forced into goin to SF and the machine costed 2 friggin dollars...
this guy was playin basic afronova, he hella screwd up and was all like "fuck...that was hella hard..." and all of his friends were like"Jesus...i know..." i went up there and was freestylin dynamite and afronova and they were all "thats coooOOOooool" then i went and beat dead end maniac and the guy that messed up afronova was all, "wtf..." his face was hilarious...
went to that cool indonesian restaurant to eat dinner with mom's friend's daughter and that was cool too...almost forgot Jimi the leopard with mai backpack in the restaurant, thatabad...and Jimi, i DO carry it everywhere i go "^_^"
today is KWIZMAZ!! YAY! pwesents for clive, pwensents for clive, LoL...
143 Jimi, lots and lots, mistletoe? "^_^"
im gone!
And the wind brought Clive @ 11:39 AM
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Wednesday, December 25, 2002 |
i miss her...i miss her a lot...cant wait until the 27th...
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how can you see in through my eyes
like open doors...?
leading you down into my core
where i become so numb..
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mai parents are makin me leave, so ima go...
im gone...
And the wind brought Clive @ 1:24 PM
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Tuesday, December 24, 2002 |
ddr-ed today, nothin else very eventful...
dream a dream
kick the can
healing vision ::trying to learn angelice...that second string pisses me off::
dead end ::which i got too tired and failed damn...and it was on the easy parts too...::
so yea...for the ppls who know...i happed to come across a coupon for a bakery...hmm...i wonder...
kelvin got me addicted to evanescence, so yea, damn u kelvin...
Jimi the Leopard says ::RawR!!::
143, Jimi...at 8, k?
im gone...
And the wind brought Clive @ 11:22 PM
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Monday, December 23, 2002 |
What swear word are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
LoL...im an asshole, well, what do u know??
not playin ddr for a week is...weird...i take Jimi the leopard everywhere i go!! Even To Pleasenton! ::sticks out tounge:: its the real Jimi to me, ::BLAH! to the rest of U!::
only 2 ppl on mia christmas list...wow, im cheap, LoL. i got Jimi something already, so its annie's turn, "^_^"
btw ppls, "just for u" is my song, and "spur of the moment" is ME, ME, ALL ME! LoL, it the way i write things, in the friggin spur of the moment, thus the friggin name, goodness gracious...
evanscence, what a pretty name...i like their song "bring me to life", its very tres muy good. thx a lot kelvin! "^_^"
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143, Jimi
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im gone..
And the wind brought Clive @ 12:45 AM
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i said BYE DAMMIT!!! ::LoL::
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just for you
~spur of the moment
ii look and i dont see
i listen but i dont hear
i turn to face you thinking
but knowing you arent there
and i see
you through
this window pane
and i listen for
you everyday
i think of you i cherish you i would die
just for you
just for you
to be divine
just like you
to be
like anything you do
but no matter how hard
i try
i always end up like a fool
the one that you’ve always known
me to be...
not like you, not like anything...
that you are
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I look but I cant see
I try but I cant hear
I tried to love you as best as I can
But I know that I wont do
And I see
You through
The fallens’ eyes
And I listen
But I hear
Your anguished cries
i think of you i cherish you i would die
just for you
just for you
to be divine
just like you
to be
like anything you do
but no matter how hard
i try
i always end up like a fool
the one that you’ve always known
me to be...
not like you, not like anything...
that you are
that you are
that you are
that I will never…be
i think of you i cherish you and i would die
just for you
just for you
to be divine
just for you, I’ll be something I cant be
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i S2 Jimi
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im gone
And the wind brought Clive @ 10:36 PM
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Wednesday, December 18, 2002 |
well well...
::sigh::
i...uh...::sigh::...doin sosci hw rite now...this thing keeps distracting me cuz its rite behind me and its such a better alternative to sosci hw...ive wasted 23 minutes sittin in front of the comp and not doin ne of the work, if you look at all the"...'s" you'll see how many times i turened around to actually type in this thing, LoL...it is currently been 8 minutes since i lat typed and im on #4, go me, wait...make that 9 minutes...i seem to have wasted another 3 minutes looking outside...so im gonna stop bein stupid and end this thing...
hte past 2 days have been so FRIGGIN STUPID...first period rain, 2nd rain,3rd no, 4th yes, 5th no, SIXTH NO! why couldnt it have friggin rained on 6th too?!?! makin me and Jimi suffer taufer's basketball field "i dont have nething planned" day...
i S2 Jimi "^_~"
And the wind brought Clive @ 10:35 PM
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Tuesday, December 17, 2002 |
YEA!!!!! NO CHINESE SCHOOL FOR 3 WEEKS!!!!!!
the christmas party was ok...the party itself sucked...the food was ok, but i got to play DDR, thas always good...though the rain and mai shoes didnt agree with the dance platform... rick, kelvin and me got so bored, we took out may's picture and started to laugh at it...that was how BORED we were...rick was all goin, "is it even her face??"
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the ketchup song is tite!
"Aserejé, ja deje tejebe tude jebere
sebiunouba majabi an de bugui an de buididipí"
LoL...
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yesterday was tite...i went to southland, and the machine is only 50 CENTS!! i played one game at first, but then i was all...how come no one's here?? so i changed 3 dollars inbto tokens and put them all in at the same time, so when ppls did come, they were all...hey?! wtf? i wanna play, how come u still have 3 credits?!?! i was all thinkin..."iono, some guy put in coins and didnt use'em."..LoL...
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folding STARS!!
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i heart Jimi!
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im gone...
And the wind brought Clive @ 11:17 AM
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Sunday, December 15, 2002 |
heh heh...i have a 124 IQ and im and "visual mathematician." i have an 129 EQ and im empathetic, coolz "^_^"
Clive Chan, your best quality shines through in how Creative you are!
The fact that you're an inventive and creative person who usually has an abundance of imagination and ideas really draws people to you! But that's not the only thing. Your answers on the test indicate you're a smart person who is more able to understand complex concepts than many other people are. You are a hopeful and optimistic person who tends to look on the bright side of life, too. <--- really now??
In all, there are 15 qualities that help define you when you're at your best. Those are the traits potential employers, friends, and partners look for in you. What makes you unique is your particular distribution of those 15 qualities.
We've found that your particular combination of qualities is rare — only 1 in 10,000 people share the same general mix of traits. Those are great odds if you're trying to show a potential employer, colleague, friend, or date why you're exactly the right person for them.
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not really date though...friend, cool! "^_^"
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ooOOoo, tomoro is christmas dinner, i wanna DDR...::sigh::...
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www.emode.com has a lot of cool quizzes...thas where i got the IQ,EQ, and best personality test...
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i heart Jimi ";_;"...im sori i cant go to the dance...
~*~*~
im gone...
And the wind brought Clive @ 6:25 PM
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Thursday, December 12, 2002 |
as annie would say..."mr.blogger is annoying me a lot..." LoL...
this week has been...interesting...i've been on top of things...
::evil clive:: |snorts| for once...
::clive:: shut up, u...
::evil:: tch, make me
::clive:: fuck off...
everything hasnt been goin mai way either...
-umbrella thingy
-ink thingy
-lead thingy
-elastic thingy
-dance/christmas party thingy...::sigh::...i'll miss u Jimi...
never knew chris played DDR...hmm...never knew dennis liked kirby, so nvm...LoL
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yesterday...funny convo in french class...
::monica:: |singing| "chestnuts roasting on an open fire"::
::clive:: |stares|
::monica:: |stops|...whatcho lookin' at fo0!
::clive:: |stares harder and raises eyebrow|
::monica:: mindyo' own shin'diggity
::clive:: |raises eyebrow|...o....k.....
LoL...yea...
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cool song bingo sent me...got addicted to it, just like he said it would...damnit...
Perfect
~Simple Plan
Hey dad, look at me
Think back and talk to me, did I
Grow up according to plan?
And do you think I’m wasting my time?
Did the things I wanna do
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
And now I try hard to make it
And I just wanna make you proud
I never could be good enough for you
Can’t pretend that I’m alright
And you can’t change me…
Because we’ve lost it all
Nothing last forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be
Perfect…
And now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be
Perfect…
I tried not to think
About the pain I feel inside
And did you know you used to be my hero?
All day you spend with me
Now it seems so far away
And it feels like you don’t care anymore…
And now I try hard to make it
And I just wanna make you proud
I never could be good enough for you
Can’t stand another fight
And I think it’s alright…
Because we’ve lost it all
Nothing last forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be
Perfect…
And now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be
Perfect…
Nothing’s gonna change the things that you said
Nothing’s gonna make things right again
Please don’t turn you back on
Can’t believe you talk just to talk
To you, but you don’t understand…
It’s because we’ve lost it all
Nothing last forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be
Perfect…
And now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be
Perfect…
Because we’ve lost it all
Nothing last forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be
Perfect…
And now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be
Perfect…
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i'm not implaying nething about Jimi ppls...i still heart her veryvery much "^_^" <-- looks kinda like vicky, ne david?? LoL...
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im gone...
And the wind brought Clive @ 10:34 PM
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Tuesday, December 10, 2002 |
OMG...i havent updated in a LONG LONG time...and...
OMGOMG...mai comp froze 3 timez tryin to log into this friggin thing...its pissin me off like hell...
well...lets see...
i took 3 tests today...math cumulative test for mordaunt, and NEXT period, the american revolution test for bonomo...then LAST period, the basketball test for taufer...i hate mai day...
twol 3 is almost done...since i dont get pissed much nemore...its harder to write...
umm...helen's a kitty, LoL...shes got MANY MANY lives, heh heh heh
ima tryin to do the harder maniacs now, anteing up to 8-9 feet, go me...and i wanna try to freestyle dynamite rave on x8, LOL...
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i heart u Jimi..."^_^" ::glares at ryan ko and jess::
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im gone...
And the wind brought Clive @ 8:15 PM
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Friday, December 06, 2002 |
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