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Am I a cloud in the Sky?
Blown by the wind.
Up so high...
Maybe it's why I like the rain so much.
It brings me back down to earth.
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ah, i officially pronounce The Way of Life I & II to be complete "^_^" the first one's just a compliation of like, 6 weeks worth of me getting pissed off and writing 8 lines each, and the 2nd part i just used 3 parts, beggining, catalytical, and solutions, and put them all together...this is what you get when clive gets VERY bored...
The Way Of Life
~iViE
Here I am
Out on my own
Out in this expanse
Out in this darkness
Out here on my own
Inside my own world I stand alone
Inside my own world I think alone
Inside my own world I live alone
Inside my own world I die alone
And it takes me but a second to realize the truth...
I am on my own
All alone
Nothing broken
Nothing shown
The facade I wear every day
Worn down by what others say
And I’m left with nothing
There’s nothing you can say or do
There’s nothing here to think
I’m here in my own little world
Pushed out to the brink
As I walk on the land I dare so call my world
I’m walking on thin glass
My world is controlled by the consciousness around me
From future present and past
Places are changed
People are changed
I am changed
The more I learn
The more I become
The wiser I am
The more I am numb
Of the places and people around me
Full of utter lies and of deceit
Of the people who love and care about me
Their acts they will not repeat
For a fallen with no hope to stand
For a person given reprimands
Anger is my life
My rage consumes my being
My life was jus deleted
I spent my time and heart on you
Only to get rejected
Seeing as to how things are
My judgement's not yet up to par
With what people expect of me
Out of rage and out of fear
The fear of people that's hating me
I'll laugh in their faces and show them my fury
And imagine what it would be like
To truly suppress the me within
The real me
The one no one will want to see
The evil, scheming, outraged, outspoken me
The jealous, hateful, malicious me
The me without the mask
What will it take to set myself free
Till today, i still don’t know
In no way you can understand me
In no way you can see
The me that has been wandering
The me I want to never be
To live life is torturous
To die is to sin
To do neither is wrong in either senses
To do both will shame my next of kin
From heaven nor hell
In civilization or a jail cell
I am the outcast
A reflection of the pain I feel
The clouds on a rainy day
Clouds of storms and uncertainty
And all to life that's gray
I am a mirror or the sky
I know not all the things around me
Not even a little crumb
And after all this time
You’d think that I learned some
To defend myself from this dreary world
To protect myself in need
You’d think that I learned life
From the warnings I take heed
The mysteries of life are too baffling
My eyes are clouded and cannot see
To have everything disappear
To pray the inevitable will never be
Life as we know it
Has never been fair
This life of mine that I own right now
How I wished it was never there
Second chances don’t last forever
There won’t always be a way out everywhere
And today
I have learned my lesson
Always and Forever
The lessons that can be learned but not taught
Goodbye and Never
Words that are lies and can be caught
Time can be the most valuable thing
But it always races against us
Life is full of riddles and mazes
Made much too mysterious
Luck can be called upon in times of need
But it won’t always answer
To those blinded by greed
The road to life is harsh and gray
The path of happiness is far away
The good times we know will never stay
And all I have are memories
If only life was more comprehendible
To see what I have made myself
To know what I must do
I scare myself with my imagination
I feel like such a fool
Without any road sign
Without any map
My life is nothing but a dream
Woken by a clap
The path of life is foggy
The light of hope is dim
My life hangs on the balance
My chances are so slim
And to finally realize who you are
What’s your purpose
And that you're out here on your own
That is the Way Of Life
The Way Of Life (part II, Anger Management)
~iViE
No one has gotten me to the point of closure
No one has ever seen
Bend myself to the pressure
Try to make sense of something obscene
Why am I always getting blamed?
For something that’s erased and now has been
Given the message that I have shamed
Just go to hell, don’t make a scene
I just don’t give a damn
I have to get to the point and find my origins
Making sure I’m not mistaken
Using your mental boundaries to write me margins
Hoping I’ll be shaken
At your certain show of stern command
You think I give a fuck?
If you think you’ve shaken me, know this: you’re out of luck
There’s nothing I can do to change your mind
It’s nothing but a waste of time
I’ve tried and tried to make you see
Just worked so hard to leave you be
Isn’t that what you wanted?
To finally to be able to understand me?
But have you ever thought about what you never see?
Have you thought about what I could be?
If only you have left me alone
I could show you what I know I would have been
To show you what you’ve thrown away
The last standing part of me, willed on by sheer defiance
Soon I’ll leave you in disgrace
No tyrant can control me, no matter how hard they try
My smile hides many things
My smile is like my cry
It doesn’t matter what’s left of me
All that matters is that I get to see
The day that you finally ply
That your only son wont kill you
Your innocent little boy, all grown-up and fueled by hate
Look what your dominance has brought yourselves
I’m not your slave and I never will be
Ill gouge your eyes out to make you see
To me, this is just the beginning and…
Finally
Someone broke through and told to me
Used my art of anger against me
What’s been done can’t be taken back
Through reality I've realized that
To used my road of passion, and turn it into rage
I felt this way before
I've been meaning to turn over a new page
In the book, I should have written more
Look forward in life
I never look behind
Who in hell do you think you are?
To go take a knife and slit my throat
To myself, I am not yet up to par
Through lyrics and word
To weave a web
For a forsaken person to step into
For a goddamned person left to choose
Between what I want to say
And what I had to say
You're not the only person who had to suffer
Have you ever looked the other way?
If you had, consider this
Was there something you could have missed?
Was there something that caused all this?
If you hadn’t, I’ll just say that
Something that’s been done cant be taken back
Through reality I’ve realized that
Knowing the wrong and doing the rite
I’m not blaming anybody
I believe in instant karma
To me, the ultimate rule defined
I wont ask for pity
I ask to be left alone
So leave me be, left not in pain
But in twisted, wicked humor
To see my point being taken across time and space
To the person meant to race
Against me to achieve the winner place
Peering into my mind once more
Everything changes as consequences are thrown in
Changing the problem
Yet the destination is still the same
Making all of this catalytical
Within the only solution i can help to find
Wanting my problems to be defined
Leaving you writhing; leaving you entwined
You've got no hold onto me
Got nothing left for you to see
See, now u've got to leave me be
Im about to be charged with first degree
Murder, harrassment, felony
Misdemenor, abuse, and robbery
You've got no hold on me what so ever
Got no hold on me till the end of forever
Got no hold on me period
Im not the one that tell u this
Leave me alone, stay out of it
I cant help it if u interlope
Your comebacks suck, they make me choke
My feeling, my emotion, my rage, my fury
Its all in my solution, and of this i am weary
Of the things i did to derive to this
From east to west i pay the defecits
Of my one and only outlet of poetic genius
Stand up you weakling, my art is multifarious
So just shut the hell up about you so-called abilities
Cuz i jus hate your guts
I go to you for advise, not insults
Not put-downs, cluelessness, and dead-end ruts
You want to know how much hurt is in this cut?
Right on the back of mai wrists?
Hah, that's my solution to everything
Death its so tempting, you just cant resist
my final solution
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deep, yes, dark, yes, good?? iono, i want u guys opinions, whoever even reads till here...i wont b updating this fot around 6 days, so eh, this thing will be hella worn out...
And the wind brought Clive @ 8:39 PM
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