so i was pissed, but i couldnt get it out of mai head...if im pissed, i should have had some kind of rational way to solve my preblem, but if i have to do this rationally, i have to do it in a way everyone will be able to not diss...so hmm...at risk of sounding geeky(and like robert frost) i believe my one is the one less traveled, and if im to be criticized for that, then so be it...
The Way Of Life (Part II)
Beginning (Inner Turmoil)
iViE
No one has gotten me to the point of closure
No one has ever seen
Bend myself to the pressure
Try to make sense of something obscene
Why am I always getting blamed?
For something that’s erased and now has been
Given the message that I have shamed
Just go to hell, don’t make a scene
I just don’t give a damn
I have to get to the point and find my origins
Making sure I’m not mistaken
Using your mental boundaries to write me margins
Hoping I’ll be shaken
At your certain show of stern command
You think I give a fuck?
If you think you’ve shaken me, know this: you’re out of luck
There’s nothing I can do to change your mind
It’s nothing but a waste of time
I’ve tried and tried to make you see
Just worked so hard to leave you be
Isn’t that what you wanted?
To finally to be able to understand me?
But have you ever thought about what you never see?
Have you thought about what I could be?
If only you have left me alone
I could show you what I know I would have been
To show you what you’ve thrown away
The last standing part of me, willed on by sheer defiance
Soon I’ll leave you in disgrace
No tyrant can control me, no matter how hard they try
My smile hides many things
My smile is like my cry
It doesn’t matter what’s left of me
All that matters is that I get to see
The day that you finally ply
That your only son wont kill you
Your innocent little boy, all grown-up and fueled by hate
Look what your dominance has brought yourselves
I’m not your slave and I never will be
Ill gouge your eyes out to make you see
To me, this is just the beginning and…
"^_^"...heh heh read Catalytical now...i mite just repost it, since i kind of edited it...
wells...im drained of inspiration as of now...i wanna write more, but then, im drained of my poeticness...writing during the day is mai bane...it drains so much friggin energy...
sana's goin to come over to play FFX in like, 20 minutes, so i gotta go, eh...
i swear, if i write another one of these 10 minute poems, mai brain will spontaneously combust...
And the wind brought Clive @ 1:41 PM
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Sunday, June 30, 2002 |
my mom wont let me type, so yea...
And the wind brought Clive @ 3:04 AM
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wow...i gotta think of a lot of shiet to type... :tries to act smart: lets be like albert!! eh, im being stupid trying to act like him...ohs wells...hey, i dont try...its summer, and y the hell am i blogging now???
possible reasons for idiocy:
-insomnia
-the army like music thas playin rite now...(one winged angel, FFVII)
-kelvin, aaron, so on so forth...
-kelvin and his lil friends' chatroom...he fried alla mai creative brain cell with all that rapping...damn, i write poems, not rhymes...mai creativenesslessness has been restored. i could sure as hell try (i mean, ive written a 60 lined poem in like, 5 minutes...) but i wont get newhere....
-mai idiocy has bought out weird clive as well as kinky clive
kinky: i can tell clive is tired "^_^"
weird:(looks amazed) whoa...ur rite kinky...clive is becoming idiotic...
kinky:(looks amazed) im actually right????? :sqeals: WOW!!! THAT IS SO COOL!!!!
weird: "^_^" speak of the devil
man... i have a feeling that there will be a funky clive soon...
And the wind brought Clive @ 2:20 AM
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kelvin's just there....
And the wind brought Clive @ 1:48 PM
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Friday, June 28, 2002 |
aarons wants me to add him in here too...
And the wind brought Clive @ 1:47 PM
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man...bingo is annoying the hell out of me, hes so annoying..."^_^"
And the wind brought Clive @ 1:47 PM
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today of ur kinda weird day...woke up at 10:30, and naturally had nothing to do. thought about homework, and i was like, i still have 65 somewhat days, so i was like wth, screw hw...
ate lunch, talked on aim, the usual...YAY!!! ff.net is back on!!! but sadly, its a bit laggy the last time i checked...eh, now, the world will be perfect once audiogalaxy comes back online...
went on mai usual GS rounds, i took a long time today, went past dinner and everything, this one website, djinni quest, had tons of things that they needed to update, and since i read a line that went "feel free to post comments and new updates," i was like, what the hell, i'll do it, this site is hella behind in GS charts, i also dled like, 5 ayumi songs...i still hold mai opinion, she's hella good at singing, i like her voice "^_^"...well, mostly the music, but her voice is good too!! i think im starting mai aymi saga in mai dreadded playlist...first it was final fantasy, then weiss, then gravitation, then techno and rave and trance, then yugioh, now AYUMI...man im screwed, all of her song are like, 5 minutes long...
well, there goes mai computer...:holds up banner: "and mai life too"
eh, then i contemplated quantum physics with aaron (no, forreal, im not joking, it was intellectually entertaining really) we were argueing on the point at how quantum physics allow you to take more favorable paths down the time line in which time controls, yet QP can do nothing about how you have to die anyways if your time runs out, and thats when you get killed even though you might have greatly extended your timeline. time is set, and cant be changed, and you use QP (quantum physics if u hadnt figured it out by now) to jump along the path, picking out the more favorable paths, yet, no matter how much you alter your path to your liking, once time runs out, QP would have become useless since you have no time left for you TO alter. we left off rite there since aaron had to go...so were continuing it tomoro!! "^_^"
ok, so that was mai part on QP...
after that, i find yugioh cards and started to save the ones that r cool or cute, and then i updated mai infinite, i added a new philosophy btw, its one about human practicalities are weaknesses. then since im bored, im updating this blogger rite now...
end of story, end of day...
And the wind brought Clive @ 12:18 AM
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me bored, so me blog now...
fun fun day, dad didnt wake me up in the morning to go run, and kelvin came rite when i was about to finsh brushing mai teeth, so i had to change in roughly 25 seconds, fun fun... umm...played frequency for a while, then when to lake elizabeth :so i cant do push-ups...so??:took the shortcut through gomes, reminisced for a while, tried to look for opportunities to terrorize lil kids, but there were too many adults, so we didnt get nething done...stopped by david's house and tried to get him to come over, but he say hes busy :seriously, i have a feeling his motha jus wouldnt let him...david, im me if im wrong: then...umm...went home, ate lunch...and umm...started dling all these songs by ayumi, meanwhile, we played crisis beat, then we were bored, and played crisis beat again, 2 times over. then we got hungry, and started eating again, and we started playing create a character on rival school, it was hella funny cuz we couldnt understand japanese, and we had to keep answering questiong that we didnt know the answers to...then kelvin left, and i ate dinner, then i went online, then i started to GS syndrome stuff to djinni quest, then i read some more GS stuff, then i got bored and i updated InfiniteProfile, then i got bored again and im typin now...
kelvin is preying on mai paranoia at the websites that he sends me...argh
remember the great comercials:
the a&w thick-headed commercial, the mr. dumass one...
the herbal essence one, the one where the women meet at a restaurant and yell at each other's hair...
the rote reeler commercial, the guy got hit real hard in the balls apparently...
eventfulnesslessness:
kelvin s/o: 6/28/02
seattle/vancouver: 7/3/02
days left of summer: at least 67, so thas good...
days left of mai life: every minute of eventfulnesslessness will result in loss of 3 months of age
eh? do i care?? end of story, end of day...
And the wind brought Clive @ 11:15 PM
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Wednesday, June 26, 2002 |
im goin to blog now! "^_^" eh...i dont have nething to say......at least not now...maybe after lunch ill find something to say...oh wait, i totally agree wif kelvin...if ur fingernail ever kinda disconnects, it hurts like hell, just typing rite now is killing me, i cant use mai middle finger :is that a good thing or a bad thing??: eh, thas all 4 now...
And the wind brought Clive @ 12:24 PM
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Tuesday, June 25, 2002 |
"catalytical"
~iViE
Finally
Someone broke through and told to me
Used my art of anger against me
What’s been done can’t be taken back
Through reality I've realized that
To used my road of passion, and turn it into rage
I felt this way before
I've been meaning to turn over a new page
In the book, I should have written more
Look forward in life
I never look behind
Who in hell do you think you are?
To go take a knife and slit my throat
To myself, I am not yet up to par
Through lyrics and word
To weave a web
For a forsaken person to step into
For a goddamned person left to choose
Between what I want to say
And what I had to say
You're not the only person who had to suffer
Have you ever looked the other way?
If you had, consider this
Was there something you could have missed?
Was there something that caused all this?
If you hadn’t, I’ll just say that
Something that’s been done cant be taken back
Through reality I’ve realized that
Knowing the wrong and doing the rite
I’m not blaming anybody
I believe in instant karma
To me, the ultimate rule defined
I wont ask for pity
I ask to be left alone
So leave me be, left not in pain
But in twisted, wicked humor
To see my point being taken across time and space
To the person meant to race
Against me to achieve the winner place
Peering into my mind once more
Everything changes as consequences are thrown in
Changing the problem
Yet the destination is still the same
Making all of this catalytical
eh, so i go into poetic rages, it seems like im not the only one...i edited this a lil bit...
And the wind brought Clive @ 9:40 AM
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Monday, June 24, 2002 |
damn...i havent typed in this thingy for like, 5 days, so i think i'll have a lot in this one...
lets start wif the day i first got out of school...that day was hell, i went to sleep at like, 2 in the morning, and i woke up at 8, i wanted to go back to sleep, but could i?? Nooooooo... i thought i was goin to collapse, but nearly that whole day, i was jus sittin in front of mai comp staring at the screen while windows popped out and i typed into them...oh yea... its called AIM...
umm....friday...oh yea, i went to sleep at around 1:45 the nite b4, :im a nite owl, heh: and i knew that kelvin was gonna come over the next day, but i went to sleep then neways, since mai parents were watching the world cup, :korea, into the Final Four! finally, some Asian team in the final four, even though its not china, korea's still good:..well neways, kelvin jus had to come at like 8:30 the next day, when i thought i could finally get a good nite's rest, but hey, im not complaining, i would have bored maiself to hell...or just went online...but neways, we played harvest moon...eh...freqency...eh...oh yea...we watch lilo and stitch at cindome west, cuz friggin cindome east didnt have it...oh, and afterward, we went to the arcade "starcade" or whatever, and we played some games...:soul caliber was cool! "^_^": and yea...i kinda got a lil blotchy too...:shut up kelvin...:
saturday...umm...that was when we went to berkeley...um...it was cool, i had mango-a-go-go and i had mocha, well, at two different times of course...eh, imagine them together...ew...i think i bought the most shit on that day...may uncle, friggin BORING uncle, just kinda took us everywhere, and we kinda just shopped...i bought a kenshin shrt :wif saitoh on it, yea jonathan, thas rite, saitoh hajime "^_^": lets see, i also bought...eh, nothing i guess, but i got the most expensive thing, that shirt was like, 18 bucks...mai mom bought something too, this pair of bell bottoms i think...she also kinda wanted to buy this one belt wif the playboy logo on it, and i was like, :mom...that makes u look bad...: and she was all, :really, i think it looks kinda good on me: so i was all telling her, :do u have any idea what that is???:, and she was like, :yea, its a belt, wif the playboy logo: and i told her, :EXACTLY...it makes u look like a...bad person...: so she jus got kinda pissed and didnt buy it...i had to survive nearly the WHOLE, ENTIRE, saturday without mai Golden Sun, yea kelvin, U KNOW WHY...
yesterday, we went to stanford mall, walked around, bought some italian soda, sat down...and played GBA...kinda went into the bookstore and read for a while...and then we went home, end of story, end of day, hey...that can be mai new motto thingy...
just 40 minutes ago, i went to run the mile and 3/4s with mai dad :who walked it:...damn mai dad walks fast, i was running but then i kinda stopped for a minute and a half and he caught up wif me, and when i stopped, i was pretty sure he was hella far behind...well, thas all of today i've lived so far...i think ill type more later...end of story, start of day "^_^"
And the wind brought Clive @ 9:14 AM
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would you like to keep an idiot amused??? see below
would you like to keep an idiot amused??? see above
And the wind brought Clive @ 6:28 PM
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Wednesday, June 19, 2002 |
smart clive: due to extensive examination, i have concluded (to mai collegues evil clive, kinky clive, and weird clive) that there r indeed the 5 of us. using logistics, i can also conclude that at certain points of boredom, a whole entirely new being will emerge named insane clive.
kinky clive: thats kinky!!!!
evil clive: shut the f*** up kinky, im tired of all ur kinkyness, as well as genkiness and euphoria, damn im sounding more and more like smartass...
smart: u should E, its becoming"^_^"
kinky: ooooOOOOoooo...ur becoming more like me!!!! "^_^"
insane clive all three of u, SHUT UP, i like to type junk here, and personally, i think im better than all three of u, so shut up!!!
smart: see what i mean by insane?? hes in no way smarter than I am
clive: shut up ALL of u, ur all me, so all of u, SHUT UP!!!
eh, just have to get the other me's out of mai system, theyre so damn annoying, persistent too...
so, today was cool, LAST DAY OF SCHOOL BABY!!! it was so friggin boring, but then last period was ok, i think i actually have a 4.0 this quarter AND semester...:faints: can u say YEA??? i finally got mai french grade up, thas cool, now its a 92 quarter n a 90 semester "^_^", close call! but then im worried, since mai math grade mite be pulled down, and then it'll go from a 91 to and :gasp: 89!!! NOOOOOO!!! :faints: only time will tell...i hope i got a 4.0, but its hard for me, friggin teachers...
i really dont know how to think of mai teachers nemore...lets see...kendall i think is still kinda eh...mrs derose is ok, she neva did nething good or bad, so it eh for her too...bonomo is eh too since she assigned us something the day b4 the last day of school, but gave me the top grade for the class...woolbright is evil, since she wants me to suffer in her class next year, but told me that i had a rare kind of intellegence mixed with affability, so that kinda wipes her record clean...fukunaga is clean too, since i hate him for givin us finals on the last day of school, but he told me that i have potential...wow, that coming from him ought to wipe neone's slate clean...and koppel i think is a loser cuz he got dumped by the most pitiful looking girl in 8th grade :he showed us the pic of her(as well as his own pic) in his old yearbook: teachers looked freaky back then :fukunaga...: and koppel himself looked so wrong...BUT, he raised mai grade to an A-, and thas good. basically, i really have no opinion on mai teachers...
life is hell...(maybe not nemore"^_^")
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quoting bryatt (the evil one, sam, u know what i'm talkin about...) : on aim, it's all about being warned, #1, if u've got nothing to lose, warn the hell out of ppls and fuck their brains out(yea, i know, the quiet ones DO surprise u...) and, if ur being the one thats being warned, give them a prize, they deserve it, its ur own one of a kind knuckle sandwich, made with all the love of loathing that person. and if ur really into it, put on a smile and make ppls think ur insane "^_^" ( it was hella freaky when he said that since he was smiling too...) so mr aaron baumann, tomoro, i'll do as bryatt told me and give u a prize, involving mai fists??? now, how would i know??? :sappy smile:
whoa...okay, that was freaky there...did i actually THREATEN someone??? omg...thas like so...arjuny...now im scared of maiself...and thas a bad thing...so today, the whole day was cool except for the part that i had to take the math finals...damn, we only had lik 25 friggin minutes to do the whole 40 problems...wait, 45 problems...i was all, WTF!!! oh, and of course, like 10 minutes ago, when aaron warned me to 100...
wait, the evil me is taking over again... thas never a good sign...if im turning evil, that means im cracking, and i cant crack, its mai rep for being cool no matter how much ppls piss me off...if i can even stand arjun...wait, im training to stand arjun, how come i cant stand a lil aaron...better write down the date and time on a piece of paper that i wont do nething i'll regret to aaron when i become the evil me...but see...thas mai theory on smart ppls, they have all this lousy control and that they supress more than express, and in the end, the just turn into hyde, u know, dr.jekall and mr hyde, yea, that hyde. see, thas what i think happen to the other me, lol, im supposed to be all smart and shit, well yea, what do all u motherfuckers know anyway?? lol, whoever thinks they know nething about me should knowwhat happens when i go into mai motherfuckin rages...
okay...i think i really went crazy...u know what?? i'll stop typing, u know, for the sake of maiself, i dont wanna start drawing pictures of me crucifixing aaron...
oh wait...did i say cucifix???
oh boy...i'll go watch charmed now, maybe it'll get mai mind ofa things...
mai life is hell...literally"^_^"
And the wind brought Clive @ 10:19 PM
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Tuesday, June 18, 2002 |
today was mai usual no chinese school schedule...wake up at like 9:30, and become a couch potato sittin in front of a tv, had lunch, and mom made me get a haircut, cut by her of course...and im sittin here now, bored as hell, typing this up...
Clive's Question of the Blog
why r married women so bitchy when their husbands r gone???
so yea, mai life is hell...
And the wind brought Clive @ 5:56 PM
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Saturday, June 15, 2002 |
yay!!! no more chinese school!! i get to wake up when eva i wanna tomoro! "^_^" today was so weird...1st period, i forgot to do yesterdays hw, and i told kendall that i didnt do it and she was like, "its okay, i dont want it" and i was like :what da hell???!!! since when does a teacher reject an assignment??: and i was like "ok..." and she told me..."u already has an a in the class, its not goin to make that much a difference, so im not takin it"...so yea, thas first period...pe was boring, we lost, period, fini, nada...at lunch, i basically went around the patio asking the girls to buy me fruit works...mm mmm, strawberry melon "^_^" so neways, i got heather to get me fruitwroks and i was in social studies and ryan started to bug me with his safeway, i kinda blocked him and knocked over what seemed like half mai fruitwroks...DAMN...and the whoile class watch the movie whil i went to the teachers lounge to get paper towels...LoL!! apparently, ms bonomo likes her floors dirty, and after i used paper to wipe it, she commented "i dont think that floors has been that clean since the the LAST time i had the janitor wipe them (which i believe was never...)" so yea, inca is VERY boring, and the video was total bs to me...
sana was being ffx obsessed nerd today again...
moms bein a bitch lately, jus cuz dad's in n.j. shes all yellin at me nowadays, and makin me do dishes, which is why i cant type nemore...
mai life is hell...
And the wind brought Clive @ 9:55 PM
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Friday, June 14, 2002 |
ok...so now i get to type more! "^_^" where was i...oh yea, about how not-rite mrs k is...summing her up, shes a biatch. pe, bored, we lost... so sci, i got to GLOAT!! "^____^" rank one in the class ppls :bows: with a final grade of 96.7%, thak u very much!!! :bows: ahem...neways...english, :gloats more, "^____^": im #1 in thas class too! math, OMG...i was SO close to getting a b+ for math...stupid fukunaga, giving me a c+ on mai test...:pokes fukunaga voodoo doll with his own red pen: and french...i sat through the whole thing sleeping. i MITE jus get a 4.0 this semester..."^_^"
And the wind brought Clive @ 5:16 PM
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Thursday, June 13, 2002 |
i only have english today, YAY!!! but theyre porfolios...DAMN!!! i'll deal with it...but neways, y do we have to keep portfolios neways?? its stupid and its pointless....well, to me at least. quest, damn kendall for still giving us hw, shes so friggin unreasonable...who gave her the right to give us hw after not teach us a lesson becuz she wasnt there for the last 45 minutes of class (which was literally the whole period)?? we all had to sit through ms wiseman (ironic, her name says nothing of her intelligence...to me at least) lecture/lesson. i was asleep for like 30 minutes into the class period. mai moms bugging me to not write, so i guess ill have to go...
life is hell...
And the wind brought Clive @ 4:31 PM
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doin so sci hw rite now. at home. bored as hell. bsing on mai assignment, lol. listening to avril lavigne, complicated. lets see...how can i keep makin maiself sound retarded?? hmm...neways...i took french finals (the oral part) today, i swore i failed the friggin thing since he was practically putting me on the spot when he asked me the questions, i felt like i was being interveiwed by this weird guy who speak only french...:sigh:...i still have to take the written test :chews on his fingernails wondering what he got on the oral:...wait a sec...since when did i chew mai fingernails??? i dont, but neways, sigh...5 days of school left, yay! bliss! umm...so nehow, on first period, we bluffed mrs k to not read the bs (hoping not to have to do ne hw...) but she piled more on us...stupid friggin quest hw, u SUCK!!!. in pe, the whole softball team was hella dissing arjun, nobody would touch NEthing he touched, and that included the ball, so the other team won (arjun was on our team) sigh...he keeps following me around, to majors, the library, god knows i hope hes not in love with me! :shrinks in fear: eh...mom botherin me to do hw...
life's like this...thas the way it is...
avril is now officially stuck in mai head...thx a lot kelvin...
And the wind brought Clive @ 6:12 PM
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Wednesday, June 12, 2002 |
This song is so ... me...i cant help but like it...its in the leauges with my december and running away, and thas scary...not many songs can bring u down AND make u feel better...sigh...who cares if people dont care about me, i can always just ignore them and smile, rite? RITE?????
Complicated
~Avril Lavigne
Uh Huh
Life's like this
Uh Huh
Uh Huh
That's the way it is
Cause life's like this
Uh Huh
Uh Huh
That's the way it is
Chill out
What you yellin for?
Lay back
It's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see
I like you the way you are
When we're drivin in your car
And you're talkin to me one-on-one
But you've become
Somebody else
Round everyone else
Watchin your back
Like you can't relax
You tryin to be cool
You look like a fool to me
Tell me
Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're actin like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get
And you turn it into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No no no
You come over unannounced
Dressed up like you're somethin else
Where you are and where it's at you see
You're makin me
Laugh out
When you strike a pose
Take off
All your preppy clothes
You know
You're not foolin anyone
When you become
Somebody else
Round everyone else
Watchin your back
Like you can't relax
You tryin to be cool
You look like a fool to me
Tell me
Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're actin like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get
And you turn it into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No no no
(no no no)
No no
(no no no)
No no
(no no no)
No no
Chill out
What you yellin for?
Lay back
It's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see
Somebody else
Round everyone else
Watchin your back
Like you can't relax
You tryin to be cool
You look like a fool to me
Tell me
Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're actin like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get
And you turn it into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No no
Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated?
(yeah yeah)
I see the way you're actin like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break and you take what you get
And you turn it into
Honestly, you promised me
I'm never gonna find you fake it
No no no
~
nobody wants to be me
And the wind brought Clive @ 5:14 PM
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Tuesday, June 11, 2002 |
today SUX!!! i have to do mai book report on a frickin GRAVESTONE!!! i read the stupidest book too...well...i dint really read it...but neways...lots of hw...
so yea, u want mai day, u got it, and its hell to live through
nobody wants to be me
And the wind brought Clive @ 2:29 PM
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Sunday, June 09, 2002 |
YEA!!! no more chinese school!!! but then...there's finals, and thas bad...i have french finals and i think english finals on wednesday and i have math finals on the next monday.
great mall is tite! media play! eh...i just read their manga and stuff...offered is cool, just that they didnt have volume 2, or i would have sat through it for like another 45 minutes "^_^" lets see...what else did i read??? utena...oh yea...X/1999, vol. 5 and 6...and offered, and yea, thas all...i think...
thas all for today..i think...
so yea, u want mai day, u got it, and its hell to live through
nobody wants to be me
And the wind brought Clive @ 6:00 PM
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Saturday, June 08, 2002 |
i have so much hw to do over this weekend...and that sux! i have to do mai book report :which i didnt even read a book yet...: i have math homework! well...lets see...neahkt...lol, nothins been up cept for the neverending bombardment of hw...
today i was kinda weird, iono y...first period was my :zombie: period, pe knocked some sense back into me :crosscountries! "^_^": so sci got me into geek mode, but it was hella funny...i stole ryan's backpack when he wasnt looking :how the hell can u miss someone stealing your backpack???: i had to tell him to give me back mai pencil or else his safeway is goin into the trash :inside joke: and so ms. b was collecting our so sci text books, and i went to turn mine in, i had to tell kelvin to grab my pe bag :which ryan also stole: and throw it on the other desk. it was hella funny to see ryan screaming all over the place "^_^"! neways, english was stupid...the quiz...math, mr. fukunaga's bs...and french, koppel's lil quiz and lesson about our finals. sana :an ass: wanted to come over and play ffx, so i let her, but i just keep thinkin to maiself, why doesnt she just get a goddamned american ps2??
so yea, u want mai day, u got it, and its hell to live through
nobody wants to be me.
And the wind brought Clive @ 8:54 PM
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Friday, June 07, 2002 |
i just LOVE setting up a :goal, schedule, routine, whatever, and BREAKING IT!!! i swear it'll ruin me one day...lol if ur lookin for a good laugh, u can always check out edward's profile, he's full of it, hes just got this weird knack for funniness...im not makin ne sense...neways, im dead tired, i didnt do mai english vocab like i said i would...wait, did i even say that :innocent smile:...oh well, ill jus have to take care of it like, in the after noon...launguages SUCK, and bottom line, jackie SUCKS too!
we got yearbooks today...or...yesterday...sarah signed mine, thas all that matters, she doesnt hate me, and thas good...now if only david and sarah both knew...sigh...im starting to say things im not supposed to...life is unfair, i keep telling maiself that, but why does it also have to be so bitter??
this is to u, u know who u r, if ur looking, at least know how i really feel...
love is hard to live through
traumatizing one with hearbreak
and to heaven and earth and hell
may devil cry and angel weep
when they watch mai tears fall to the ground
to see my love go unrequited
iViE
i dont have the strength to type nemore...
And the wind brought Clive @ 12:13 AM
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Thursday, June 06, 2002 |
umm...doin hw rite now since i have lots, i have like 3 projects due tomoro, and like 2 hw assignments, so im kinda doin three things at once...:typing up this blogger, checkin on mai songs, and doin hw...
what is it with girls and their lil cliques??? jackie came up to me again today and was all "sori u didnt win." and i was jus in a hurry, so i was all sayin "yeayea, well, its okay, i was jus running for fun." but then she jus gave me her lil smug look and was all "BUT I DID!!!" rite in mai face, and her lil clique was all laughing. so i did the first thing that came to mind: say "bitches" and walk away to the library :i forgot to do french...again...: i think jackie heard me, but then, y would i give??
got lots of hw, so yea...
mite type more lata...
And the wind brought Clive @ 4:07 PM
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Tuesday, June 04, 2002 |
today was kinda hella boring...mai mom's friend from lasvegas came over and we had to go "yum tza" with her and her family...i nearly played golden sun in the friggin restaurant the whole three hours...we went to valley fair afterward, i saw this one cool shirt that i wanted to get "^_^", but i looked in mai wallet and i fount like 3 bucks when the shirt costed like 19.50, so i was jus like "screw abercrombie..."
when i got home :finally: i jus remember the 7th game was on, the kings and lakers one...now im hella pissed, i mean, HOW THE HELL DID THE LAKERS WIN???
sigh...i jus finished math like 10 minutes ago...and im like dead tired, so ill leave it at that...
And the wind brought Clive @ 10:30 PM
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Sunday, June 02, 2002 |
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